I desperately, desperately, desperately want a religion. I want something to believe in, beliefs that I would die for, beliefs that I can take into my bed with me at night and think about whenever I lie awake, dry-eyed and sleepless. I want to know with an unshakeable certainty a fact that has sprung from my own heart, my own mind, untaught to me, nor fed to me with a silver spoon.

I also want to talk to someone about this. But no one's online! >.<